Lies sometimes Help

Recently, I lost a close friend by telling my friend how I felt. I was always told to tell the truth but in this case, I wish I hadn't. Now, my friend is gone and I don't think he will ever forgive me. I guess it is true when they say, "The truth hurts".

Just Stuff

Whew!!! It's been a long day. I woke up earlier than expected, but of course I went back to sleep. It has just been a long drowsy day. I'll be glad when I find a damn job!!! I need some money.

Life without Void

Life without Void

Would anyone miss me? Does anyone love me? Does anyone care?
Just to go through life as a depressed, stressed and unloved person is unthinkable. I’m often misunderstood because people can not see my deepest thoughts, my deepest emotions, my deepest dreams, or my deepest scars. Crying in the inside for someone to listen when friends turn away. Losing a good friend is like losing your memory.
You have to start over completely.

School is a burden, but not only that; everything that accompanies school. Peer pressure to be something you’re not or do things that you know you will regret. Friends who will become close but still talk behind your back. And social activities that sometimes make you forget about your morals and what you really stand for.I went through school while being laughed at by society because I was not skinny…and never have been. Why can’t people see my beauty? Do I have any? How can I end it now? Would anyone miss me? Does anyone love me? Does anyone care?

Emotional set-backs and undesirable thoughts cut deep like blades. My ambitions are forever decreasing because of the feeling of not being wanted…Fearing rejection in its highest form. Yet, I have experienced rejection. Rejection because of my skin color. Rejection because of my size. Rejection because of my personality. Rejection because of my past. Rejection because of my looks. Rejection because of society’s negative stereotypes. Would anyone miss me? Does anyone love me? Does anyone care?

The interpretation of how things should be, the demonstration of how things used to be, and the motivation to enjoy the things that are happening now are not in reach because of life’s unbearable circumstances. Life is like drawing without an eraser, and someone has drawn a line setting me and the rest of the world apart. Would anyone miss me? Does anyone love me? Does anyone care?

Doubtful dreams, broken promises, and a future that has no end do not amount to the drastic measures I’ve taken just to fit in, keep friends, smile often, make others happy, and be loved. Where should I force it to be sure to hit a vain, lung, heart, or any other major artery? Maybe if I bleed, I will bleed out the hate, bleed out the hurt, bleed out the pain….soon to enter a world of new existence. Would anyone miss me? Does anyone love me? Does anyone care? I’m tired of living this life without void.

Frankie Alexander©2006

Delayed

Sorry for the delay in the number of blog postings I have been putting up lately. Seeing that classes have now ended and finals have begun, I really don't have much to talk about lately. I don't think many people read the blog anyway. So now, I'm just going to talk about anything that comes to mind. I can't wait until August 15th. I know. I know...you are probably thinking, "Why in the hell is she ready to go back to school so soon?" It's not that I'm ready to go back to school. Then is when I move into my apartment with my 3 closest friends. It should be GREAT! I've gotten a job for the summer working at Wal-mart Portrait Studio...you know, the company that is usually in the front of walmart that takes pictures of people, sorta like Olan Mills...lol. Anyway, it should be fun trying to get babies to smile. I know it pays well. Ok, I've put a song on the blog, well it's not really a song. It's moreso an inspiration poem. I think it relates to me in many different aspects. Focus your ears on the words.......


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Picture This....

I know you all have never seen real pictures of me, so now is the time to indulge in my angelic goodness. Focus your eyes on one of GOD's most beautiful creations.

Unexpected Expectation

Sometimes, things may not go as planned. They can end up better or worse than what was expected. Although this is true, it is still great that it had a chance to happen. EVen when you first meet a friend that you never really expected to meet in your lifetime, the meeting leaves a little joy in your heart. Though questions may go unanswered about why things happened the way that they did and the answers are likely to never be revealed, the experience will last a lifetime. Trusting someone to make you happy and share those special moments with you is very hard to do. It is something that may not happen the first go-around.

Life experiences help determine how far you go in life.
Age and maturity help determine how far you go in life.
Kind words help determine how far you go in life.
An open heart helps determine how far you go in life.
Character helps determine how far you go in life.
Long-lasting friendships help determine how far you go in life.


"You must learn day by day, year by year, to broaden your horizon. The more things you love, the more you are interested in, the more you enjoy, the more you are indignant about, the more you have left when anything happens."

Favorite Quotes

I just wanted to share with yall some of my favorite quotes. These are sayings that anybody can live by and help them achieve anything that they want to achieve.


"A man may fall many times, but he won't be a failure until he says that someone pushed him."

"Never be afraid to try something new. Remember, amateurs built the ark. Professionals built the Titanic."

"Hold your head up, but be careful to leave your nose at a friendly level."

"Striving for success without hard work is like trying to harvest where you haven't planted."

"Be an organ donor - give your heart to Jesus!"

"WARNING: Exposure to the Son may prevent burning!"

"Life is fragile, handle with prayer."

"I will build a strong foundation with the stones which are thrown against me."

"It's ok to kiss a fool. It's ok to let a fool kiss you, but never let a kiss fool you."

"A smile is a curve that will straighten out a lot of things."

"I've always wanted to growing up and be somebody. I should've been more specific."

"Growing old is inevitable. Grow UP is optional."

"I can do all things through Christ that strengthens me."

HOPE THESE GIVE YOU A LITTLE INSPIRATION!